I could technically come home today but I'm just going to stay here as long as I can I think. I don't really have much of an incentive to come home. It'll be relaxing and people will be leaving so it'll get more and more quiet everyday. The kids across the hall were running, yelling and blasting "club bangers" type music so I walked over and asked them if they could shut their door and no one said anything so I shut it myself. Taught them a lesson. Feels good man.




Put me in your suitcase, let me help you pack
'cause you're never coming back, no you're never coming back.

Today has been a really good day. I've been pretty productive and it feels really nice.
I lost myself for the last couple of months but I'm back now and full of wit! (just kidding)

Also Del the Funky Homosapien is coming on Monday. I can't believe it. Ellensburg can hip-hop.

I like taking walks and listening to music and when no one is around singing the words out loud. On a day like today, something feels really beautiful about it. Sitting on benches and feeling the wind and stuff. Nah mean?

Is it possible to tell someone to buzz off without being mean? Probably not.

I had the most wonderful backrub of my life yesterday. Very nice and unexpected.

Something weird happened when I was in bed last night. I started shaking uncontrollably and I felt really cold and in pain. It lasted about fifteen minutes or so until I eventually fell asleep.
I feel extremely unhealthy. I have to force myself to eat because I have no appetite and my body is constantly hurting. Weird.

Riding on a cloud for now. Thanksgiving was surprisingly enjoyable, it was good to see family. I like it when people enjoy my company. :)

So far this break has been relaxing. I touched something I shouldn't have and now I am paying for it but never again... (I say this now). At least I have an orange.

I still haven't seen the one person I wanted to see most. Hopefully today something works out.



HAPPY BLACK FRIDAY YOU SICK FUCKS. DON'T TRAMPLE ANYONE TO DEATH THIS TIME PLZ.

My pops was passing through town on a business trip tonight and he took me out for some grub. It was okay, the company I mean. We just talked about the usual; school, life, depression, etc. He didn't have much to say as he was too busy giving the elevator to each one of the waitresses.

The food was absolutely fantastic. I had yellow curry and jasmine rice. Leftovers for the win.

Today was a good day though. I got up early and got shit done. I nearly finished my Christmas shopping too. I never give out gifts but this year I thought it would be fun. I enjoy picking out things for people, I think I hit the nail on the head with this one too.

Going back home tomorrow. I'm not actually sure where I'm going to go tomorrow night but Kelly and anyone else should get at me if anything is going on. I'm really not trying to be at home a whole lot. Things are a little tense at the moment.

everyone i love is going to have a christmas gift this year.

i obtained some caffeine pills and they are oh so wonderful.




I made a dream journal yesterday. I'm going to try to write in it every morning when I wake up. It's going to be fulls of descriptions of the dreams themselves but also analyses, thoughts, etc. Here are some photos of it, I think it's pretty cute. I've started picking up the old artsy craftsy things I used to do and I forgot how happy it made me to sit in my room for hours cutting and pasting and drawing and painting. I'm thinking about selling some things on etsy. I've always wanted to but I never have. My mom is pretty into it and she makes pretty good money. This is what I'm going to do to keep myself entertained and happy.








What do you guys think? :)

I think I have a virus on my lap top, guess we never got any anti-virus shit on there after it was formatted. It boots up but then when it gets to my desktop it completely freezes anywhere from 30 seconds to a minute afterwards with the caps lock icon blinking on the keyboard.

Also, I've been having a lot of disturbingly graphic dreams. I've been ripping my teeth out in them and I can almost feel it.

Any computer buffs out there want to halp a sister out?


P.s. Sherlock Holmes, ladies! Who's with me?

I know the source of the problem and I'm going to fix it. Just dawned on me a few minutes ago. I wish I could crawl in a hole for a while and feed off termites but I can't and I won't. (There's a serious lack of protein in my diet)

Had mashed potatoes for the first time in a long time!

i have a pretty decent rack
i care a lot about the people i love
i'm funny sometimes
i have a vagina
i'm thoughful (but mindless) which is not a good thing.

anything else? i think the first step to recovery is loving myself. go ahead and add something if you can.

POSITIVE THINKING! CHOOOOOOOOO CHOOOOOOOOOOOOO. i think i can i think i can.
i'm not digging for compliments here, i'm just trying to build a foundation so to speak.

Orbit's new Pina Colada gum is to DIE for. Blows Trident Layers outta the wata. For certain.



P.s. I think I know what you're trying to do and it's working.

I had a dream during my nap this afternoon that I was being penetrated by Larry King. What does this tell you? Should I be worried?

and i beat banjo-kazooie again last night. i have been awake for 52 hours and i'm ready to party hardy. no sleep 'til i beat pokemon snap. watch i'll be snoozing in 3 hours. just you watch.

i'm thinking about transfering to evergreen so i can take french. i really shouldn't be wasting my time at cwu but i have a lot of pals here i don't want to leave.

i had a really nice time in port orchard besides the time i spent in my house. caught up and bonded with a few old buds, told some jokes, shared some laughs, took some baths, learned some maths, fed my cats. i love maggie mae so much. i miss her to the point of tears in mes yeux. she's getting pretty old for a wiener dog and it worries me :(


DOES ANYONE HAVE A SILLY JOKE TO SHARE?

no more bullshit. i'm in this fo real.

also, i'm over it.

HEY I'M BRITTANY BAIER AND I'M A GREAT PERSON. I LOVE TO LOVE AND BE LOVED AND THAT'S ALL THAT MATTERS TO ME IN LIFE.
LIFE IS A BEAUTIFUL GIFT AND I'M NOT GOING TO SPEND ANOTHER DAY BEING A LITTLE BITCH WHO CRIES ABOUT THINGS SHE CAN'T CONTROL.


YAY FOR ME.

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cat/bird

I'm missing my feathers but you get the idea.

I'm hiding in my room, save inside my womb. I touch no one and no one touches me.

weak bones
weak knees
i don't eat enough cheese
calcium
save me please

smoking weed has helped me a lot lately. it's easier for me to concentrate on thought after a few bowls. i bought a nice journal to record my most exciting and insightful thoughts so i can look at them in the future as a reminder of my personal goals. i'm happy with the progress i've made but i'm no where near satisfied. trying to create inner and outer peace for yourself is easier said than done.